New Home. New Life. New Outlook.

Instead of waking up to a quiet and peaceful tranquil valley, I wake up to loud cars, barking dogs, people walking by my window and the never ending sound of whizzing cars. *sigh*.

I will get used to it. The noise doesn’t really bother me too much. It’s a good wake-up call anyways. …

I really miss my x-gf… or is she still my gf? She makes it very clear that we are over.

She doesn’t want to talk to me or check up on me anymore. Everything I do to her seems like it is all my fault and I’m wrong.

After hours, days, and weeks of reflecting upon our relationship, I’ve came to the conclusion that I am not wrong and what I am doing isn't my fault. I blame her. Yes her. She can’t control her Immaturity, jealousy and neediness. Shit needs to stop. It is irritating. I mean it was cute maybe about a year ago. Now it’s just obnoxious and dumb. I mean grow up already geez.

This past Sunday I was @ Maries house in Kailua for Viktor’s birthday bbq, which was fun. I got him a Z-Flex skateboard. I was having a grand old time, jumping on the trampoline, eating cake and ice cream and goofing off with thee so called "cousins". Then my so-called GF who said she doesn’t want to talk to me any more calls me while I am bike riding to Safeway with Rose and Ginette to rent movies.

I answer “hello” and she responds with a greeting and a question in an irritated tone “Hi, what are you doing?”  A bit out of breath I replied, biking to Safeway with Rose and Ginette.  Karly, then said angrily “why are you with her?” I was confused by this question.  I responded I’m here hanging out for Viktor’s bday , can you call me later?

Irritated she said, “yeah whatever bye”.<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< What's your deal?

Oh it isn’t over yet. She has to hit me with  txts now.  

 “I’m probably not going to call you. I don’t even know why you would be with that whore! I hate her!”

I was riding bikes with Rose and Ginette to go to safeway. They are like my cousins. I can’t ride bikes with Rose and Ginette to go to safeway?

And on an angry note.  WHO THE FUCK DOES KARLY THINK SHE IS?! SHE TELLS ME MEAN SHIT, SAYS SHE WANT’S NOTHING TO DO WITH ME AND WOULDN’T CALL ME EVER AGAIN. BASICALLY SAYING WE ARE OVER. THEN SHE GOES AN STARTS SHIT WITH ME.

I asked her what’s wrong with Rose and Ginette. She replied as usual, not making sense and not really explaining any REAL shit.

“ROSE! She’s like a sneaky little rat and I don’t want you around her!

First of all. Who are you to tell me what to do and what not to do. I am FUCKING BIKE RIDING WITH MY COUSINS TO THE FUCKING STORE! Like wtf?

My last response to Karly was “why what’s she gonna do?”

Karly :” nothing forget it. You don’t care what I think, just gonna do what you want. Im going to sleep bye.”

As soon as I read that txt I was like wtf o_0.  Chick has issues.

I seriously am over her childish ways. Soooo immature.  I ignore it.

Until she can call me from not a private number , things will change.

Until she gets her own laptop so she can webchat with me, things will change.

Until she loses this immature attitude, things will change.

Until she has a real reason for anything, things will change.

In the mean time I will be focusing on my life, living, learning, pursuing my career. So maybe in the future, when I am able and ready I will move to Florida to be with her. 

This has been my goal from the start. I can't just move to Florida yet. I am not ready. 

Finally got internet in the new crib. Thank god. I think I take my A+ certification test tomorrow, if not next week.

Life is good. 

Only thing that is bugging me is her. I can distract myself from thinking of her quite well, but in the end my feelings seem to be running back to her.

She is all I know.

Always On My Mind.

Lazy buddy

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